Time Flies . . .

I decided to take a break from blogging.  A week turned into two . . . and today I noticed that I’ve been “gone” over five months.

Where have I been?  I’m not really sure.  I guess just dealing with life on a daily basis.

You know the old saying . . . fail to plan and plan to fail?  I guess I had no plan for blogging and it just went by the wayside.

Now that I’m banned from the office because I contracted pink eye, I guess I need to sit down and make a plan.

I know the down time from work will be good for me . . . but it sucks to be banned.

So, here I am again.  Just a girl standing here and looking at her blogging and hoping that she’ll be better at keeping it up.

P.S.  My usual intense concentration on one or two things has kept me somewhat busy.  I’m taking classes for sign language online, MS Access classes and I have been immersed in the reign of Queen Elizabeth II.

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Shift Work

I often wonder if other people feel like they do multiple jobs in one day . . . in shifts.

For instance, I have The Day Job.  I come home from it, check to see if The Boy has homework (actually I usually check that online during the day), fix dinner, feed and water Daisy Doodle and Dinky The Fierce, start the dishwasher, do laundry (although The Hubby does most of the laundry), help haul in wood or work in the garden, do any paperwork needed for our construction . . . etc.

So, I have The Day Job Shift, The Mom Shift, The Barn Living Shift, The CEO Shift, The Animal Shift and on . . . and on . . . and on.

Today is Valentine’s Day.  To be honest, The Hubby and I don’t make a big deal of it.  We don’t need a specific day to celebrate what we have.

And, since there was billing for our company to do, we were both tired and there was leftover pizza in the refrig, we opted to skip the crowds and just hang out at The Barn.

As a matter of fact, right now I am sitting with a foot peel on my feet.  I keep reading reviews and watching videos and I’ve been dying to try it.

Tonight seemed like the perfect night.  The billing is done, the critters are fed and we’re watching Moonshiners on the DVR while I have my feet in the plastic bag like wraps for the foot peel.

So, single, married, divorced, newly in love, whatever I hope that everyone enjoyed the day their own way.

Peace, Love & Find Your Tribe & Your Own Way

Hoosier Barn Chick

Searching For Words

I think I’m finally approaching the back side of the worst of the sinus infection (thanks to pineapple juice) and the ear infection is gone.

All I can say is that I’m exhausted.  But isn’t that what a lot of of us with mental illness say all of the time?  I feel like it’s all I say sometimes.

The last several days I’ve been thinking about words.  Words to do with mental illness.  Sure, you have meds, therapy, episodes and the like.  But I sort of have my own vocab that I feel goes with my bipolar.  I often wonder if other people do too…

For instance, I am always aware of my struggle timeline.  This is my term for the space of time that I feel that I can deal with things. Most of the time, my struggle timeline is a week. This is pretty good for me.

Sometimes my struggle timeline is a few days . . . or even one day.  I feel as if I won’t survive that day or two.  And, once in a while, the struggle timeline is only a few hours long.  I have to drag myself through everything one hour at a time.

I’m sure there are other terms that I use with myself.  That’s what I’ve been mulling over recently.

That and the fact that I want to continue my education.  Not sure how I think that is even possible at the moment.

It is what it is . . . and I think that I’m back.

 

Peace, Love & Self-Understanding

Hoosier Barn Chick

 

 

 

Me? Sidetracked?

Yup!  Besides getting a massive ear infection to go with this sinus infection . . . I’m sitting here with a piece of onion in my ear . . . I’m willing to do just about anything but go on antibiotics . . . I have been working on a side project (when I feel up to it) to pitch at The Day Job.

We are in dire need of a database.  Somewhere that we can store all of our stuff.  So, of course, I decided to teach myself Access in order to do it.  It’s a slow and painful process but I’m getting there.

I’m mostly on track to finish my four books for the month.  Haven’t even started thinking about the cookbook challenge I set for myself.  And haven’t picked up any yarn since around Christmas.

Sigh.

The Hubby says I always have too many projects that I want to do.  Right now I think I’ll just chill with Netflix.

Peace, Love & Whatever

Hoosier Barn Chick

A Brand New Woman (For Now, Sort Of)

 

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Yup, I have been VERY absent from the online world for about a week.  It started involuntarily.  Still struggling with this sinus infection, I didn’t have the energy to do anything but go to work, eat dinner and go to bed.

Then, something happened.  I realized that the break from the digital world (as much as I could get from it) was doing me some good.  Being bipolar, even reading news online and being exposed to negative things like Facebook means that I can suffer mentally and emotionally.  So, I took a purposeful break.

I’ve actually been working on a side project for The Day Job.  My hope is to build a database, present it to the powers that be and see if we can get it implemented.  I’ve used a bazillion databases but this is the first time that I’ve CREATED one.  Granted, I started with a template (although I worked from scratch for several days before it dawned on me to start with a template and then customize it) but it’s still new territory for me.

Today’s plan had been to spend the day working on this database.  But, I decided that I need a haircut and a manicure.  I managed to get the manicure but couldn’t get in for the trim.  That sparked a “I need to do something about my hair” moment so I decided to bleach it.  You see, several years ago, I decided to go from my natural blonde to a very deep red.  I kept that color for a few years.  But, a year or so ago I decided it was way too much upkeep and tried to go back to blonde.  I was successful . . . for the most part.  I still have some serious red streaks in the back.  So, today I bleached it.  It didn’t totally get rid of the red but I’m getting closer.

While waiting for the bleach to do its thing, I decided to do the Listerine foot soak.  Which in turn made me decide I needed a scalding hot shower and to shave the appropriate places on my body.

I feel pretty much like a new woman.  I’ve “washed” away the dead spot that I was living in.  I often forget that self-care involves things that aren’t strictly necessary.  It involves little luxuries and touches.

So, I’m back up and running . . . still fighting the sinus infection.  But, I’m hoping that this new feeling lasts long enough for me to get back in the groove of life.

Peace, Love & Happiness

Hoosier Barn Chick