Ugly Truth #3 – I Feel Like #2

bright-cardiac-cardiology-433267.jpgI have a bad lifestyle choice of not putting my self-care as #1 on my list.  As a matter of fact, I’m usually not even on my own list.  And, because of that, I feel like #2.

Let me give an example of this.  For MONTHS I have been dizzy.  Not dizzy all of the time, but dizzy quite a bit.  And several times a week I feel nauseous.  I initially chalked it up to my ever present sinus infection.  And, that might be the cause of it.  But, lately I’ve realized that I really need to get to a doctor and have it checked out.

Why haven’t I already done this?  Because I feel everything else in the world is more important.  And, by the time I remember that I need to take care of this, I’m too tired/the office is closed . . . and . . . get this . . . I no longer have a doctor.

Yup, that’s right.  In March or April of this year, my doctor (who is also a family friend) left the network I’m in.  Actually, he quit practicing altogether.  This means that for SIX months, I’ve been ignoring the fact that I need a new family physician.  Even a lecture from my mental health care professional in July didn’t convince me to do anything about it.

So, instead of making a simple phone call and taking a little time to figure out what’s going on, I just trudge along.  And worry.  I worry about what’s really causing it.  Am I sick?  Is it my crappy eating habits?  Am I not drinking enough water?  It could be any (and all) of these things.

Years ago and friend reminded me that I can’t take care of others if I don’t care for myself first.  And, if I don’t care for myself, what happens when something happens to me?

So, dear friends, yesterday I called the doctor’s office, chose a new physician and made an appointment to start down the path of the discovery of why I’m feeling like #2.  In other words, I’m making myself #1!

Peace, Love & Self-Care

Hoosier Barn Chick

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