I have a bad lifestyle choice of not putting my self-care as #1 on my list. As a matter of fact, I’m usually not even on my own list. And, because of that, I feel like #2.
Let me give an example of this. For MONTHS I have been dizzy. Not dizzy all of the time, but dizzy quite a bit. And several times a week I feel nauseous. I initially chalked it up to my ever present sinus infection. And, that might be the cause of it. But, lately I’ve realized that I really need to get to a doctor and have it checked out.
Why haven’t I already done this? Because I feel everything else in the world is more important. And, by the time I remember that I need to take care of this, I’m too tired/the office is closed . . . and . . . get this . . . I no longer have a doctor.
Yup, that’s right. In March or April of this year, my doctor (who is also a family friend) left the network I’m in. Actually, he quit practicing altogether. This means that for SIX months, I’ve been ignoring the fact that I need a new family physician. Even a lecture from my mental health care professional in July didn’t convince me to do anything about it.
So, instead of making a simple phone call and taking a little time to figure out what’s going on, I just trudge along. And worry. I worry about what’s really causing it. Am I sick? Is it my crappy eating habits? Am I not drinking enough water? It could be any (and all) of these things.
Years ago and friend reminded me that I can’t take care of others if I don’t care for myself first. And, if I don’t care for myself, what happens when something happens to me?
So, dear friends, yesterday I called the doctor’s office, chose a new physician and made an appointment to start down the path of the discovery of why I’m feeling like #2. In other words, I’m making myself #1!
Peace, Love & Self-Care
Hoosier Barn Chick